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march of the mindless

2007-09-15T14:13:00.000+08:00

a month,
and already the transitional changes feel so real.

half-fuck eyes,
purple lips,
weary smile,
overworked mind.

whenever i was spared a few minutes,
i sat down with my smokes,
drift into my temporal cosmo,
and looked at myself.

"what am i doing?",
that was always the conclusion.

maybe some found what they wanted,
maybe some just accepted everything.
what i simply know,
is i am too held back by circumstances,
and it really bothers me,
really.

is it the living or inanimate elements?
surely there's thousands of good reasons,
but if ultimately this space is the main issue,
im gonna leave everything behind,
and head somewhere where i can live for myself.

on a lighter note,
ive decided to post a couple of pics each week.
this way,
they can probably last me for months.

alcoholic paradise : cheapo booze

to the rest : the real reason why we disappeared from the party and came back all wet

reluctance : packing up and leaving orlando for the last time

temptation at south beach : she's asking for it

w00t

i love thurdays

2007-09-06T16:21:00.000+08:00

seems like thursdays are the only free days,
without work or school,
until december.

anyone up for the following?
at the arts house.

cause she's bittersweet
she knocks me off of my feet
and i can't help myself
i dont want anyone else
she's a mystery
she's too much for me
but i keep comin' back for more
she's just the girl i'm lookin' for

someone's been grinding my gear
=)

long-overdue

2007-09-02T13:34:00.000+08:00

i'm still alive,
just in case anyone wondered.

but i've sorta settled my school and work stuffs,
and things are kinda getting back on track.
so i guess this blog would be revived.

i've yet to even gotten all the pics from the peeps yet.
but i've gotten those from the first 2 months though.

shall randomly post them.
will try to get those pics from keywest, new york, and taipei soon.

scandalous

eat this

daytona international speedway

the preliminary round

cheap thrill

we love cuban food

clubparis; overhyped and CMI, just like ms paris

panama city beach

where are the chicas??

nice balcony with ocean-view

panama city sunset

we survive on oversized cheapo bread

and tasteless instant noodles

getting lost in depressing georgia at 3am

banana bay @ bahamas

clearer than the pool!

ankle-deep water for 400metres out

another hidden local beach

the image of the beach will remain for a long time in my head

i have a nicer butt than cass

daiquiri-paradise; rum is a local product and is cheap

house of blues concert hall

we called for a cab,
but got a limbo

cass loves shit on her face

famous giant golf ball of epcot, disney

irritating singaporeans

ola!
mexican-for-a-day

miami in the day

miami at night

roadtrip with the thais

cant remember how we got our blue tongue

city-walk,
universal studios

dinner @ house of blues

pleasure island,
downtown disney

jack sparrow got lost in miami?

summer's over

2007-08-24T20:22:00.000+08:00

back in sg for a few days already.
and it feels good to be back.

busy catching up with schoolwork,
people,
and lotza nonsense.

will post the pics when i have the time,
and the pics,
hah.

for now,
stay nice people.

back to the beach

2007-07-08T13:53:00.000+08:00

i wont be posting pics of busch gardens and disneyland afterall.
im too overwhelmed with pics,
and stuck with too little online time.

here's some pics from earlier this week.

we grew up playing this.

and now,
the real deal.

the screeching of tires is deafening,
even from the outside.

as i was taking this pic,
i heard the legendary "gentlemen, start your engine".

the perfect way to spend the afternoon,
before the evening race.

warming up for the surfing session.

a group pic first.
not all might survive the waves.

surf lengend.

i got attacked by a baby shark.

sweet revenge.

cash running very low.
veeeerrryyyyyy low.

upcoming major trips for the remaining month:

10th - 12th july,
the beautiful st augustine.

18th - 20th,
panama city,
and the beach party at panama beach,
where a rumoured one-million attendence will be recorded.

24th - 27th,
one of the places on my to-visit list,
bahamas and the caribbean islands!

5th aug - 9th aug,
the tip of southeastern US,
a few small islands in the atlantic ocean joined together by a highway,
keywest!

9th aug - 13th aug,
the big apple,
NY!

14th aug - 17th aug,
taipei!

18th aug,
back to singapore!!

stay crazy peeps!!

broke

2007-06-29T14:10:00.000+08:00

been working hard,
and playing to a minimal for two weeks.
everything is just too expensive.

bulgarians,
indians,
turkishs,
czech republicans,
russians,
chinese,
singaporeans,
floridians,
but i found myself getting along better and hanging out more with the thais and phillipinos.

sadly,
they have all left,
and got back to southeast asia.
i'll miss them,
especially the weekly house parties.

the crazy thai parties are always filled with beer and tom yam and spicy thai noodle.
trust me,
the crazily spicy thai food makes all the alcohol more lethal,
somehow.

the crazier phillipino parties are always filled with hard liquors,
hard liquors,
and more hard liquors.
singaporeans have this impression that most phillipinos are poverty-stricken,
domestic maid-like,
and cant speak english well.
but those i encountered here can speak damn well,
and are damn good dancers.

some of them promised to hook up with me in singapore in december.
but right now,
im gonna miss the nightly hanging out and boozing,
weekly house parties,
and the sight of them dancing in the storeroom at work whenever the radio goes
you make me sucidal, sucidal...
or,
umbrella, ella, ella, eh, eh, eh...
i'll miss them.

these two weeks,
i took a break from the beach,
and tried the countryside instead.

the countryside isnt that bad afterall.

we move around in a buggy,
and have the occasional buggy-racing.

chilling out on a home-made swing.

discovered the legendary m&m world by accident.
a store as big as a soccerfield,
with nothing but m&m products.

this florida trip seems more like an extended roadtrip.
we seemed to spend more hours on the road than at work.

my vintage ride.
love it.

did i mentioned that we spend more time sleeping in the car than on our bed?

i developed a love for sticking my head outta the window at 150km/hrs to take pics.

went onboard the sterling casino in the atlantic ocean,
the biggest gambling cruise in the world,
for free.

we set sail into the atlantic ocean...

past the south-eastern part of florida...

into dusk.

and lost our week's pay.

so what we can do now is...

just go around taking pictures...

and hang around (literally) till our next paycheck.

nothing much to show in this entry cuz of the casino loss.

noticed how i seemed to be always wearing the same stuffs?

THAT'S CUZ I AINT GOT THE MONEY TO SHOP!!!

stay tuned though.

just went to the african busch garden,
and mgm, and magic kingdom in disneyland.

the remaining two parks of disneyland,
animal kingdom and epcot,
should be on next week.

stay crazy,
people.

still breathing and kicking

2007-06-08T09:51:00.000+08:00

"how you doing, buddy?"
i dont know why,
but the locals seemed to all greet me this way.
i always reply with a "im good, and you must be doing great"

random facts about florida.
-the alligator is the mascot of florida's university,
baseball team,
tourist symbol,
and many other stuffs.
-gatorade was invented by a floridian.
-the banana boat aloe vera gel was invented by a floridian.
-orlando is the lightning capital of the world. (the lightnings here are freaking bright and freaking loud and freaking disasterous)

enuff gay talk,
time for some pics.

one of the must-visit places is of course walmart,
where everything's big and cheap.

their smallest bottle of milk is bigger than cass's head.

our favourite diner,
T.G.I fridays,
where there's special promotions every friday.

the good thing about working for the anheuser busch company,
tons of different beers to try,
FOC!

the traffic rules here seemed lax.
bikers dont wear helmets,
windows are tainted till you cant see the people inside,
and they like to do the above.

another one.

we visit downtown disney so often,
im falling in love with minnie.

bbq at captain jack's,
anyone?

apparently lowe is famous in florida.
he's everywhere!

and of course,
what's florida without the beaches?

clearwater beach in tampa bay,
where the beach is tranquil and the water is, erm, clear.

it's so peaceful and tranquil here,
as there's only the blue sky,
people lying so still under the sun as if they were dead,
and a lifeguard-less lifeguard post.

riviera beach,
facing the gulf of mexico,
and inhibited by mexicans and tourists.

liu in riviera!

took 3 days off work for the roadtrip to vice city,
miami!
took the coastal highway,
and passed by endless beaches.

first stop,
palm beach!

before beoming a surf legend,
a man's gotta surf the highway railing.

forgot which beach is this.
but there's only a looooong jetty,
and tons of skimboarders.

deerfield beach,
which is exactly like sentosa cove.

unlike other parts of florida,
where there are tons of obese people and lazy people who uses electronic wheelchairs to move around,
miami is totally filled with beautiful people.

it's easy to find the redlight district in miami.

if there's something everyone agrees on,
it's the number one tattoo studio in the world,
miami ink.

vice-less in miami.

en route to the number one beach in florida,
miami south beach!

it's nice,
nice,
and nice.

nobody told me south beach permits nudism!

infamous smu-jump. (manyun, me, justin, cass, pam)

familiar pic?

thats it for now.
the turn of summer is finally here.
it's not hot in the day and cold at night anymore.
now it's freaking HOT in the day and freaking COLD at night.

the leeched internet connection is bad,
so i'd better not try to upload too many pics.
you guys stay crazy!

finally

2007-05-22T11:47:00.000+08:00

good news for me.
it is getting easier to get internet access.

think this is gonna be converted into a photoblog.
at least for this three months.

too many photos,
too weak internet connection,
so let's start with some photos for the first 10 days here.

my bed for the next 3 months.

surprise gift frm the deyidiots.

the bus drivers here are apparently all obese.

and they dont like bells.

the jetty just outside my apartment, where i regularly go to, to make calls back to s'pore.

we're gonna make this our resident club.

slingapours?

getting friendly with one of the natives.

big lake in the middle of downtown orlando.

police in action.

liu and stitch, renvedous in downtown disney.

jingx and mickey, rendevous in downtown disney.

beautiful florida sunset.

ugly working uniform, but nice free teva sandals.

getting lost provides lotza photo-taking opportunities.

the flowers all over the place are colourful and tasty.

hard rock, orlando. the biggest hard rock in the world.

i took a record of 6 different roller coaster rides in
a day, at universal studios, orlardo.

the infamous jurassic park rex.

i loooooooooove palm trees.

hard rock, rock shop.

first-time fishing in florida : catch of the day.

people are friendly and generally happy over here.
i smile so much everyday, till my cheeks ache.

and i thought it never rains in sunshine state.

we save grocery money by stealing sauces from our workplace.

catching the artic monkeys at hardrock!

that's it for now.
im pooped and have a long day at work tmr.
you guys stay healthy and crazy.

2007-05-16T10:16:00.000+08:00

greetings from sunshine state!!

better keep this short.

everything's been fine till now.
weather,
place,
people.

but one big problem.
its tough to get internet connection.
so i doubt i will be online often.

but damn!
im loving this place!

love the sunshine

2007-05-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

w0o0h0o0.
three more days to sunshine state.

miami,
orlando,
south beach,
daytona beach,
nikki beach,
panama city,
palm beach,
florida keys,
woooot !!

exams ended on friday.
caught spiderman 3 after the paper,
worked for the next two days,
and spent the next three days trying to get the essentials for the summer,
and meeting people whom i havent seen in a while.

"essentials",
and i end up getting stuffs like these ---->

finally had the time to head down to the studio to get another tattoo,
which ive been planning for a long time.
my black star.

and thanxs alot to trixie,
who got me this 'good luck charm' voodoo doll.
i havent seen it before but apparently it is the new fab now,
and they have, like, 49 designs,
each with their own unique character.
mine is named screwie and it says,
with screws embedded in his head,
screwie will assist you by absorbing and locking all wisdom, intelligence and knowledge in.
additionally,
he also prevents you from further screw ups.

can check them out at
http://www.minitoons.com/voodoominis.htm

and thanxs to my best bud, ricky,
for the U.S. fun fund.
i promise to hook up with more beach bunnies in place of you.

and thanxs to joanne,
for "you-know-what".
wink-wink". =D

gotta go rest.
ive been walking so much these few days,
my legs are sore.

do not disturb

2007-04-27T14:11:00.000+08:00

in the midst of exams.

be back after the 3rd.

then again,
i couldnt resist posting this.
"WTF moment of the week".

"gdeirnael",
and her left leg.

"gdeirnael",
and her right leg.

"oh i fell from my bed".
yeeaa riiiighht.
your bed is 4 storeys high, ya?

exam preparations

2007-04-19T07:25:00.000+08:00

well,
one week to the first paper.
but,
whos interested in exams anyway.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nmmjPbYU1og
got it from kelvin.
made by a malaysian.
enjoyed the four minutes of entertainment.
do watch it.

those who was a part of the old liu xanga,
do you remember liu @ work?
or liu @ school?

well,
heres another spoof.
the weekly "wtf moment of the week"

this persian-looking guy left his dog on top of the ice-cream machine/fridge/whatever-you-call-it,
and went to grab something from the convenient store,
after the dog just crapped, like, two metres away.
by 'persian-looking',
i meant he looked somewhat like this--->
probably explains why everyone was cursing,
but kept quiet as soon as he came out,
and also why i didnt take a photo of him.

it amuses me,
how people judge your character by your appearance,
your family by how rich your folks are,
your intelligence by your academics,
your health by your bod,
your feminism by the length of your hair,
your masculinity by the size of your dick,
your 'coolness' by the size of 'your' car your folks bought you,
and the list goes on.

phuck,
why am i judging the judgement of others?
phuck me.

well,
it's just one of those days when im feeling pissed,
because i cant decide what to have for breakfast.
dont mind me.

pre-teen years

2007-04-15T06:59:00.000+08:00

transformers didn't excite me.
ghostbusters didn't scare me.

tmnt was 'da dope'.

it was good to revisit my childhood heroes again.
had the urge to call up my primary schoolmates,
and go "see, i told ya rafael is the better greenie!"

probably explains why i had 3-inch figurines of every turtle, april, shredder, casey,
but only one 2-foot figurine of rafael.

splinter kinda remind me of yoda.
so,
the battle of the two coolest walking-stick users.
those who prefer the green dickhead please say "liu rocks!",
those who prefer the grey/brown shitface please go "liu rules!".

and of course,
everyone loves to ride~ ride~ ride~.
the surf, the board, or the chica.

'my beach, my wave, my girl, so fuck you' ----- the surf punks

we ain't lousy wakeboarders,
we're just lousy photographers.

rriiiight.

just another day

2007-04-09T06:45:00.000+08:00

here's something new.
not the usual kiss,
mobile number,
or free drinks,
but receiving a condom from a girl at a club.
nah,
i didn't use it.
but no harm keeping it for your occasional good laugh.

pooped out and having a bath,
at 5am on a sunday morning.
for a moment i thought i was seeing things due to the many pints of asahi beer hours earlier.
only noticed it now,
despite using the bathroom 10 times a day,
for the past 20 years.

it's 7am on a monday morning now.
people are going for work or school.
but there ain't no monday blues for me.
gonna hit the bed soon.

test on tuesday morning.
wakeboarding on tuesday afternoon.
research project report due on wednesday.
edrick's birthday at powerhouse on wednesday night.
dinner appointment on thursday night.
at least i'm having 3 weeks' off from work for my exams.

well,
it's just another day.

loofing and macing

2007-03-30T20:36:00.000+08:00

del mar-ing with the loofies,
straight after work.
4am till 4pm,
made me a peeling dude.

five different peeps,
in five different courses,
from five different institutes,
makes a good picture.

to my bud,
grace the gorilla.
this is the dudette i mentioned that is on this month's playboy cover.
get me the issue pleeeeeeaasseee.

if u think caucasians are rude patrons and rowdy party-goers,
think again.
the NUS business school post-grads,
are worse,
in a negative manner, mind you.

regrets

2007-03-20T05:32:00.000+08:00

i've never met anyone who doesn't detest regrets.

i've had regrets in my life.
not a lot,
just three significant ones.
one pertaining to my folks,
one pertaining to myself,
one pertaining to you.

it's 6am.
kelvin just drove me back.
with two old songs played in his car,
he reminded me of you.

atomic kitten - eternal flame
before i even talked to you in my life,
the closest i got to you was your MD player,
which i snatched from Daniel after he borrowed it from you.
i listened to it in the aquarium while studying for my CA,
while everyone else was busy bitching and socialising.
Your MD player was cranky,
it only played this song.
i listened to this one song looping,
for six freaking hours.

whenever i hear this song,
i think of you.
it was the start of everything we shared.

stephanie sun - sometimes love just ain't enough
for more than three years,
we shared laughters,
tears,
worries,
ups,
downs.
i made a dumb mistake,
there was no way out for us.
u chose this song as the ode.

whenever i hear this song,
i think of you.
it was the end of everything we shared.

hangover

2007-03-15T20:26:00.000+08:00

i swear the ex-attica people are the craziest bunch to party with.

price: my throat, and 12 hrs of sleep.

not been dreaming for ages.
weird how after excessive boozing and boogeying,
i woke up having difficulties recalling everything last nite,
but easily noting the details of the 3 dreams i had.

for the 624623534th time,
i'm never drinking again.

immortalisation

2007-03-04T23:17:00.000+08:00

u can't kill me,
i have no life.

going to school,
and work,
became my only source of entertainment.

anyway,
these two monkeys are doing their attachments and fyp at NUS,
for a year.
so my remaining year in NUS should be good(bad).

15 years ago,
i collected nice marbles.
10 years ago,
i collected TMNT figurines.
5 years ago,
i collected passport stamps.
now,
i'm collecting miguel torres sangre de toro bulls.
WTF.

and finally.
u were the star,
that causes the fizz in my heart.
HOW COULD YOU CHEAT ON ME ON A MONDAY MORNING 4AM AT THE DRIVE-THRU!
hah hah.
i hope you're reading this.
u cheat behind my back,
i shoot you behind yours.

red; the new black?

2007-02-19T09:56:00.000+08:00

happy lunar new year everyone.

may your week be filled with ang bao,
and ba kwa.
and of course,
the duuuuuddeeeeeeee....

so,
what's new?

let's see.

rick left for milan.
gonna be away for six months.
study hard and play hard!

mindy is getting married in july.
and i'm the last to know!
only knew it two nights ago!

a friend just told me he's gay.
he caught me by surprise,
because i always catch him oogling at chicks.

i'm in love.....
with....
this!!

i would love to fight AIDS,
but i have no spare dough though.
goddammit!!

nobody likes you when you're 23

2007-02-09T01:49:00.001+08:00

rick says he wanna act his age,
which is like 269 months old.

grace says mark hoppus is cute,
since 120 months ago.

the calender says it's v day next wednesday,
which is like 0.167 months away.

i say i'm reaching 23 soon,
in 7 months.

add all these together,
and it reminds me of this
----->

What's my age again?

I took her out, it was a Friday night
I wore cologne to get the feeling right
We started makin' out and she took off my pants
But then, I turned on the TV

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by TV shows
What the hell is ADD, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

Then later on, on the drive home
I called her mom from a pay phone
I said I was the cops and your husband's in jail
This state looks down on sodomy

And that's about the time that bitch hung up on me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And are still more amused by prank phone calls
What the hell is call ID, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

And that's about the time she walked away from me
Nobody likes you when you're 23
And you still act like you're in freshman year
What the hell is wrong with me, my friends say I should act my age
What's my age again?

That's about the time that she broke up with me (what's my age again?)
No one should take themselves so seriously
With many years ahead to fall in line
Why would you wish that on me, I'll never wanna act my age
What's my age again?
What's my age again?

What's my age again...

week in review

2007-01-30T02:13:00.000+08:00

went for cafe del mar's opening party.
fell in love with that place.
hope it can last.
del mar this weekend, anybody?

the insurance advisor/agents/financial planner numbers are increasing significantly.
interesting how so many of them wants us to join them.
joined their parties,
drank their booze,
ate their food.
but nahh,
this line's not for me.

nothing went wrong with the interview.
the U.S. visa was approved.
the flight ticket has been booked.
12th may,
the date have been set.

another victim.
of the limelight,
the fame,
the materialism.
i wish you well,
and not get swallowed.

wednesday,
a NUS life sciences undergrad passed away.
sunday,
a NUS biocomputing undergrad passed away.
this week,
a NUS life sciences undergrad (me),
gonna hide at home for fear for my life.

the neglected

2007-01-19T01:37:00.000+08:00

been a while,
since i last touched my pencil.

here's a few sketches,
from late last year.

reaching out? beyond reach?
who says you can't be reaching out and be beyond reach,
at the same time?

seeing isn't believing.
i never believe what i see or hear.
not totally.

in a few months,
rick is leaving for milan for exchange,
neh is leaving for new zealand to study,
summer is leaving for aussie to study,
setoh is leaving with weiling to settle down,
anda is leaving with him for good,
i'm leaving for florida to work.

first time in ten years,
that all of us are leaving,
and to different places.

i l-o-v-e N-U-ASS

2007-01-14T13:32:00.000+08:00

this is how my first week of school went.

-spent more hours at work than at school.

-totally overslept and skipped one day,
while i have four per week.

-bus ride to school on friday morning took a cool three hours,
instead of the usual one-and-a-half.

that's about it.
nothing's terrific,
nothing's terrible.
that's school for me.

this is what an acquaintance's cousin actually did to his girlfriend:

asshole: did u bring your UOB ladys' card for the 1-for-1?

gf: oh dear, i don't think so

asshole: fuck u lor, bitch. phucking slut la u.

(gf keeps silent and seemingly apologetic)

when the drinks came,
the gf was at the restroom.
the asshole ransacked the gf's handbag,
and poured everything out.

(gf came back)

asshole: where you kept your money? pay for the drinks la.

(gf pays)

the gf was decent-looking,
polite,
soft-spoken.

asshole was arrogant,
ugly,
and rude.

life works in weird ways.

hello 2007

2007-01-02T14:29:00.000+08:00

it's a new year.
so,
what's new?

blood diamond was good.
enjoyed the acting of both the gay dude and the black dude.
do watch it if you love gay dudes, black dudes, or movies that are longer than two hrs, to get your money's worth.
do not watch it if you hate political agendas within movies.

don't you just love them?

been watching prison break intensely,
courtesy of jojo.
anyone have prison break season two?
can't get enough.

what's my weight again?

2006-12-30T05:10:00.000+08:00

been having people going,
"hey you put on weight".

yeah i know it's that obvious.

the next time i hear it,
i'm gonna return with a "hey you're hideously ugly".

conversation of the week

pain in the ass: you crap and joke too much. people won't take you seriously. you gotta pretend to be serious and show it to them sometimes. that's how we all get by.

me: wow a 30 year old auntie lecturing me. who are 'they'? who are 'we'? you are you, i am me, 'they' don't deserve my serious-ness that's all, whoever 'they' are.

p.i.t.a: see, there you go again. i'm trying to be serious with you.

me: screw you la.

p.i.t.a: hey seriously i...

me: screw you again. haha.

p.i.t.a: i prefer to just cuddle after sex, i don't like multiple rounds or mltiple orgasms.

me: wtf. you're crappier than me.

p.i.t.a: you started it.

me: you win with that one-liner.

p.i.t.a: thank you.

work's over and done with for now.
time for a break,
and to welcome in the new year,
before the new semester starts.

2006 sucks and blows,
2007 will be good.
i have faith in myself.
i will make it good for me.

i actually typed a freaking long entry,
but did away with all of them.
i nearly forgot why i started a new blog to begin with.
i didn't wanna blog too much about my personal life,
nor have an event log.
this is a place for me to breathe.

x'mas truth

2006-12-24T16:47:00.000+08:00

most kids believe in santa claus.

back in my childhood days,
i only believed in mr hanky, the christmas poo.

santa was created by capitalists.
mr hanky is the real deal.

merry x'mas dudes and dudettes!

the thirty-six hour rain

2006-12-20T07:14:00.000+08:00

it's 7am+ on a wednesday morning,
been pouring for the past thirty-six hours.
it's perfectly fine for me,
considering how much i love the rain,
especially in the dead hours,
or the wee hours of the morning.
BUT NOT WHEN IT'S HEAVY AND CONTINUOUS AND STINKIN' AND DISGUSTING AND PREVENTED ME FROM HEADING OUT!

would've been nice to cuddle in bed under the blanket.
but yeah, WHERE IS THE LER?
would've been nice to have warm coffee by the balcony
but yeah, i don't have a balcony.

the two things keeping me sane at home,
through this thirty-six hours of madness and wetness:

the darn pc, which i named Bill.

these two darn magazines.

i was bored.

take me back

2006-12-17T02:40:00.000+08:00

on an unusually busy thursday night,
as we sit and observe and ponder,
our life seeps away with each thunder.

as people around us worry about where to party,
where to have a vacation next,
where to shop,
where to have fun,
we worry about our bills,
our future,
our health,
our families.

sometimes i wish i stay eighteen forever,
when days were longer and dreams were bigger.

at least i get to appreciate sunrise everyday with this lifestyle.

liu 16:58

2006-12-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

i can bury the hatchet and let some shit go,
but i've got too many grudges to hold.

saw alot of people die in the end,
i never want to walk that road again.

now with the grand facade,
i don't wanna be an angel,
i just wanna be god.

feeling this

2006-12-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

i feel you, man.

and You,
and YOu,
and YOU,
and YoU,
and you,
and yOu,
and yOU,
and yoU,
and u.

are we all just messed up?
or are we simply victims of the changing times?

digital love

2006-12-06T06:01:00.000+08:00

three new toys.

back in high school,
i genuinely suspected that gadget-enthusiats are people who can't get laid.

sex sells

2006-12-02T17:31:00.000+08:00

motorshows, sitex, big boyz toyz, whatever.
sex sells.

call yourself a prostitute, racequeen, bathing suit promotor, whatever.
selling sex in different forms,
i'd say.

sex is sex.
money is money.
men get the two mixed up together a lot.
women make use of the confusion.

-quoted from trixie de uber pork

confessions

2006-11-24T21:54:00.000+08:00

during this dark period (which many others call 'exams period'),
i am absolutely in love with:

1) leah dizon.

2) additional scarifications this december holiday.

3) of course, triumph the insult dog.

cya maggots after 4th december,
after this black tide have passed.

speak no evil

2006-11-22T15:54:00.000+08:00

most people converse for their own needs/wants.

some people converse for others' needs/wants.

some people converse to share.

with regards to the guy/dudette you chat with at the coffee joint today,
what's your agenda?

slow weekend

2006-11-20T00:22:00.000+08:00

people, meet carina.
loud two-year-old who FORCES you to clap after she sings.
she sings every ten minutes.

didn't know macdonalds can get so brown.

work @ sentosa on sat.
i love frogs.
frogs are green.
but i'm red now.

time to study for the finals.
time to wake up my idea.
time to stop failing.
time to save myself.

the little girls.

2006-11-14T18:48:00.000+08:00

the father raises his voice slightly,
in his hand a cane showing.
with a stern voice he said slowly,
"u deserve a spanking".
with a calm but depressed-looking face,
she sat at a corner as it rains.
and what she said left her dad in a daze,
"beat me, your heart no pain pain?".

fedrick's two-year-old daughter is cool.
at two,
she knows how to save her own ass.

at two,
i end up being beaten whenever my folks deemed it right.

anyway,
someone came back for the summer.
.
..
...
....
.....
......
.......
........
........
..........
the little fat girl,
shianny.

aka burger-face

aka serial cat-killer

aka tantrum-thrower

see ya tomorrow babe.

pinky. the brain. the peon.

2006-11-10T01:55:00.000+08:00

two new additions to the family,
courtesy of mum.
genetically-modified miniature mice.
no larger than my thumb.
i don't have very big thumbs.

twenty-four hours more,
for flight to hong kong.
to work, not to play,
mind you.

work.
work.
i feel like an orcish peon.

this is what i see in the mirror.

black week

2006-11-07T18:41:00.001+08:00

remember those periods when things are messy,
and more stuffs keep coming through?

well,
it's here again.
for me, that is.

this is gonna be a long fortnight.
hopefully i can make it through nicely.

even walking to the window,
watching the rain,
smelling the rain,
soothes me.

the two of them came from nowhere and started copulating on my forearm.
a good omen, perhaps?

it gave me a nice feeling inside.

or probably because they were having sex.
wow,
unusual unknown fetish i have.
haha.

that's what i REALLY go to school for

2006-11-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

classic paul.

some bugger did this to me.

seeing double.

and not for some thirty-three year old milf you call a teacher.

one halloween, two deaths, two soon-to-be-dead

2006-10-31T00:38:00.000+08:00

i love vampires.

so do derrick.

ah,
halloween.
one of my favourite days of the year.

self-declared dead,
two of my friends.
went outta sigh,
going outta mind?

soon-to-be-dead,
another two.
one thing they have achieved perfectly?
pissed many people around them off.

dying but people aren't aware,
everyone, i'd say.

the following is dedicated to the two dead peeps,
'DiEcRkR' and 'CrHyEl'.
as well as the two soon-to-be-dead,
'JtUiSn' and 'CoAlR'.

dead!

and if your heart stops beating
i'll be here wondering
did you get what you deserved?
the ending of your life
and if you get to heaven
i'll be here waiting, babe
did you get what u deserved?
the end, and if your life won't wait
then your heart can't take this

have your heard the news that you're dead?
no one ever had much nice to say
i think they never liked you anyway
oh take me from the hospital bed
wouldn't it be grand?
it ain't exactly what you planned
and wouldn't it be great if we were dead
ohh dead

the black parade, and black september

2006-10-28T06:10:00.000+08:00

how appropriate that my chemical romance just released their third album,
titled "the black parade".
thirty minutes spent,
standing,
listening,
bought the album.
the first music cd bought in months.
i am not a pirate.

it is a concept album,
centering around a character known as "the patient" (yes, the skeleton in military band uniform),
who suffers an untimely death at a young age due to cancer.

the name "the black parade" was chosen,
due to a belief that death comes to individuals as their most powerful memory.
the main character in the concept went to a parade with his father at a young age,
therefore death comes to him as a "black parade".

black is not sufficient.
the patient,
i shall be.
simply because i relate to him,
somehow.

black september

caught world trade center.
turning into a movie junkie.
somehow,
watching it stirred something inside me.
a weird feeling.
not sad,
just weird.
i don't know.

a lesson learnt from the movie.
when u see jesus coming to you,
with a bottle of water in hand,
DO NOT accept the bottle.

my black

2006-10-25T05:28:00.000+08:00

someone handed up a black piece of paper for his finals,
titled "bill clinton".
he got an A
his analogy?
bill clinton = evil.
evil = black.

you think you know black?
black ain't emptiness,
black is merely hiding the colours beneath.
my black, that is.

selamat hari raya!
first six hours catching "the prestige" and chilling out in town,
when half of singapore is unconscious.
remaining eighteen hours stoning, slacking, sleeping.

with this two friends.
a chinese girl who looks malay,
an indian guy who insists he's chinese.

i am racially confused.
i need new friends.
hah hah.

a new space

2006-10-24T08:11:00.000+08:00

it felt right to start a new chapter,
although the previous one ended so abruptly.

but i'm the author of my own book,
and i don't really have to answer to any sponsors or publishers or shitheads.

i fell hard,
simply because i took pity and grew attached to a pebble in my path,
a pebble that somehow reminded me of myself.

for my own reasons,
now i'm gonna step over the pebble and carry on my way.

as much as i would love to kick it or throw it away,
i didnt,
and i simply placed it back at where it was.

i could've placed it by the side where it'll be safe,
but i didnt,
i couldn't,
not when it is tainting my soul in return.